Victoria S. Hardy

Victoria S. Hardy

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Something Squirrelly This Way Comes?

I’ve been perusing headlines seeking some sort of confirmation of what I feel inside. I’ve been on the Internet for hours each day for almost a year, knowing there is something that I am supposed to see. And I have seen a lot. When I look back I try to find the exact place this desire to seek started and I can’t, it’s been both a steady growing and a sudden explosion.

Spring of 2004 keeps a place in my memory, as does Hurricane Katrina, both times filled with signs of some scary thing lurking in the back of my mind. Previous to Katrina I was having a lot of water and storm dreams and one dream journal entry simply says “something about food and water in the attic”. When the events of Katrina were occurring, I sobbed for days, the sight of dead bodies lying on American streets ravaged me inside in a way I still can’t explain and I kept thinking, “It’s really happening, I can’t believe it’s really happening.” Deep in my mind it felt like a road mark, it felt like I had known it was going to occur and now I was in disbelief that it had.

Spring of 2004 was the first Spring I felt anything like hope after losing my son in 2002 and nearly losing my own life in 2003. It was wonderful, but strange. Sudden insights would come to me out of nowhere and although I had always known there was more to the world than I see, that knowledge of otherworldliness became concrete. I attributed the strangeness to a near death experience, but that didn’t really seem to be real to me. It was a though I was trying to convince myself that that was the reason for the strange change in perception and to this day, I still don’t understand the whys.

My life has always been filled with strange and synchronistic events, always and the older I have become the more aware I have grown of the odd threads that run through my world. I’ve always said that I have lived life by the seat of my pants, I go on instinct. And as a younger person I didn’t question those instincts very often, I used to run through life as though the devil was on my tail and perhaps he was. But life has a way of kicking your ass to get your attention and I guess that’s what happened to me and led me to the search.

Last summer I was drawn to the Internet and began exploring the world with a fervor that I could not explain, as though time was short. And in this one year I have learned of 9-11 truth, chemtrails, Bohemian Grove, Skull and Bones, disclosure projects, government deceit, corporate and medical lies, government funded pedophilia and sexual slavery, mind control projects, black ops, weather manipulation, directed energy weapons and other new age gadgets, religious deceit and the list goes on and on. And in all that mess, perhaps I have found was I was looking for, something squirrelly this way comes.

Now I am not a prophet or a psychic, but I have a bad feeling of what may occur this summer. And in spending some time on various forums, I am discovering that I am not alone. It seems our president is speeding along to an agenda that we, the people, have absolutely no awareness of, but I think we all know that he has a goal, an ending place. And it seems to me he is in quite a hurry. He’s signed more executive orders than any other president in history. He’s preparing for something, but what?

I was absolutely drawn into a forum thread on Above Top Secret when an supposed government “insider” going by the name of Ghost Raven stepped forward to warn us that a ET “false flag” invasion was scheduled for this summer. And I was not alone, the thread received record hits and over 1600 comments in a four day period before the “insider” claimed it was all a hoax, simply practice for him. I suppose what captured my attention was that I had recently written an article NWO Deception: Faked Rapture and Project Blue Beam about basically the same event, but his disclosure had a time frame, this summer.

He explained, before calling his missive a hoax, that sometime in July strange things will begin occurring, not scary, he stressed, just strange. Followed by more missing persons reports on the news and sightings of more strange lights in the sky. These events being timed to coincide with vacation schedules, when people talk more with friends and family about “scary” stuff. Then electromagnetic disturbances will occur, with disruptions of radio and TV signals and messages coming over the air. After these events have us on edge, a mass disappearance will occur and then a call to battle the evil aliens that captured our missing. This “insider” claimed to work with the a branch of the federal government concerned with domestic affairs and public attitudes.

It seems many on this forum took this statement as truth and even after the “insider” fessed up and several wondered exactly which part of the statements were hoaxes, myself included. Many spoke of dreams of seeing the skies full of UFOs and although I did not participate in the discussion, I have also had those dreams, with increasing frequency since Hurricane Katrina.

Now for such an event to occur the media would have to play their role and I noticed that at the same time the “insider” had us enraptured with his tale, FOX news had a story about a mile wide UFO spotted by a pilot. FOX News
And then to add to the mystery, right before the hoaxer confessed, the Emergency Alert System in Chicago went haywire, sending out false alarms. EAS and
Daily Herald

So after the excitement died down and the hoaxer was banned from the site, I began looking at other forum threads on different sites and found that folks who apparently weren’t privy to the happenings on Above Top Secret were also discussing the feeling that something was going to happen in July and August. The date of July 15th seemed to be quite popular, as well as, many foreboding feelings surrounding August, the pervasive feeling is that we are on the edge of some big event and although I have no clue what, I feel it too.

Now do I know that something will actually happen? Absolutely not, but the feeling persists and hopefully I am wrong. And if something does happen, I have no clue what it might be, from new and more inventive terror attacks to UFOs racing through the skies to dramatic earth changes to the second coming of Jesus. For those intent on reading the signs and patterns, the world seems primed for something and I guess this is my way of saying “heads up”.

Love and Light

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Who's Crazy?

Who is the real judge of sanity? And should our government and pharmaceutical companies be making those decisions? Frankly, after many of the mental health professionals I have met, I wouldn’t trust them to make those kinds of decisions in my life. I always figured people pursue degrees in psychology because they are attempting to understand what is wrong in their own life and I’ve known many admit that that was indeed the reason they were interested in the subject.

You may ask how I’ve come in contact with so many mental health professionals and although I was taken to counseling after molestation as a teenager, most of my experiences with psychologists were personal relationships and friendships as an adult. And I have to say that most I have known are as unstable as they profess the rest of the world of being. I even went so far as to marry one once… a man who ran around naked in front of the kids, hung the head of our dead dog on a tree and wanted to shingle our house with tin cans, was also the same man who put on a suit every day and made determinations about other people’s state of mental health.

So when I see the American Psychological Association adding new diagnoses to their Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV-TR) I grow uneasy. These new categories are not created through study or any real new mental disorders, these new diagnoses are decided by member vote. Mental health disorders such as Reading Disorder, Mathematics Disorder, Disorder of Written Expression, Social Phobia and Nicotine Dependence are now worthy of mental health treatment, you know, behavior modifying drugs. News With Views

So who really should judge who is sane and not sane? The way the APA is heading everyone will be declared as having one disorder or another and with the addition of the President’s New Freedom Commission on Mental Health it seems the goal is to have all Americans evaluated, starting in pre-school.

As a young child I had imaginary friends that I talked to and played with, I guess nowadays to the APA that might infer schizophrenia and a need for medication. As a teenager, I failed Algebra, Math Disorder, I’m definitely a nut job now. Is it not enough that hundreds of thousands of kids are now zombied out on Ritalin? Whereas kids used to be able to run, play, jump and explore for hours a day, we’ve convinced parents that having excess energy is a disorder, instead of changing the system, we are attempting to change people and what makes a person an individual.

What we are seeing is one more infringement of our rights, as the pharmaceutical companies seek more ways to sell their products. In an article out of Ireland, psychiatrists are beginning to stand up to the pharmaceutical companies, claiming that "the influence of the pharmaceutical industry is unhealthy". The Drugs Don’t Work

And what is the goal of all this intrusion? Well, to make us more productive workers, tax payers and consumers, of course. That is, after all, the most important thing, right? We are supposed to change our way of being, of thinking and of feeling, to fit in an easily counted bean drawer. People are different, Thank God, and we are supposed to different, we are not all supposed to be same, because then, what the hell would be the point? Although we may all have a different ideas of why we are here, I think most will agree, we’re not here simply to please our employers, authority figures or peers.

In a battery of medical tests, including a psychological evaluation of my son to determine the amount of brain damage caused by developing hydrocephalus at 9 years old, it was determined that I was an over-protective parent and he was depressed and a hyperchrondriac. I was seeking help because I knew something was wrong, I beat my head against a brick wall that would not move- the rules and diagnoses created by experts. Finally, with his body emaciated, experiencing daily fevers and then seizures, they decided to take a second look and found he had been suffering from a fungal infection of the central nervous system for months, if not years. My instincts had been right, the symtoms he complained of were real and after innumerable surgeries, months of recovery and two years of home school, he was ready to go back to school, but not one expert apologized. And I’m sure the records were never changed, to them I’m still over-protective and he’s a depressed hyperchrondriac.

If I had of listened to the experts, I would have ignored my instincts and most assuredly lived to regret it, but by standing up and challenging them, I gained a label of mental instability. So I learned that what many in the world consider normal and sane, ie., listening to the experts over our own feelings and instincts, I consider insane. So it would only make sense that some things I consider normal, the experts would probably call a mental imbalance, so who’s right? And who decides? The government? Pharmaceutical companies? The APA? Or the individual?

Yes, I recognize that there are folks out there that are actually mentally imbalanced, but do we have to screen the whole nation? Especially considering how creative the APA is in naming disorders, we will all fall in one category or another. From mood disorders to male erectile disorder to religious or spiritual problems to relational disorders to pain disorders to anxiety, stuttering and sleeping problems, we can all find a home in the DSM. And a drug to go along with it.

Monday, June 11, 2007


Hope is the most important thing and in this world where the only accepted emotions are fear and hate, hope has to struggle to be felt. I spend a lot of time attempting to understand mysteries and I do so because I am truly seeking to know myself, completely and at the core. I figure anything that catches my mind and intrigues my thoughts is simply showing me another piece of myself. Some may believe that seeking to know myself is a selfish endeavor, but having given 30 odd years to not knowing myself at all and living a life of constant chaos, I found that ignorance didn’t work so well for me.

As I explore the headlines, seeking the threads that will call my attention, I notice again and again how almost all media wants us to fear. The mainstream media implies things are under control, somehow, but still we must be weary, watchful and on alert and the alternative media tells us things are awful, out of control and actually quite frightening and we must be on guard. The religious media tells us that things are bad, near the end times and we must watch the groups of other religions or atheists and understand that believers are under attack. And the atheists and agnostics warn us that the believers will take our rights and force us to conform to their ritualistic behaviors. The medical headlines inform us there is a drug for everything; even things we had that we didn’t know were abnormal and how important it is to see your doctor. The holistic communities tell us that the medical community is completely off the mark and we must be informed and fight for our rights to choose our own forms of health care. The security experts tell us a new 911 is inevitable and pulling out of the war will only hurry that conclusion along and the anti-war folks say we are only making the situation worse over there and participating in genocide. And then we have the entertainment business, selling us sex and violence at every turn, wrapped in hundreds of different guises, but always the same.

And frankly, it is exhausting, but I guess that is the point. I believe that this journey we call life is like a staircase, with each step forward on the path, we must remember what we learned on the last. And with each step forward, as our perspectives broaden, more fear and illusion will be thrown our way.

Humanity at this point seems infected with fear and it is a fear they want to share. And I, for one, am tired of living in fear, exhausted and overwhelmed by the carrying the weight. We must remember the real truth is hope, if we have faith in a better future, we can create that future and if we listen to the doomsayers and fear mongers and take up our cross in their way, we are creating exactly what we fear the most.

Fear Less and Hope More

Monday, June 04, 2007


I wrote an article last week for the American Chronicle entitled NWO Deception Faked Rapture and Project Blue Beam and in that article I mentioned Bohemian Grove, an ultra exclusive men's club in California in which our President and many other super rich and influential members of the Global society are members. If you are not familiar with Bohemian Grove see Alex Jones. And I received this email from a member of the Sonoma County Board of Education and it disturbed me.

"You know absolutely nothing about the Bohemian Grove and u tube is NOT accurate and very misleading. How I know this is I work there. So, one should not write about what they don't know and people who submit stuff on u tube only gave you what they wanted YOU to see. The Cremation of Care is a musical production, if you watch the video it is dark and no voices can be heard and the person that submitted that video did it for money. How sad that you have fallen into that stuff. Also please note that any one who is political and holding office are not allowed."

Notice to Recipient: Information contained in this message may be privileged, confidential and protected from disclosure. If you are not an intended recipient, it is strictly prohibited to use, disseminate or copy this communication. If you have received this in error, please reply to the sender and then delete the message.Thank you.

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I reponded as follows:

Ms. Aubry,

I stated in the article: "Now I cannot say I know for sure what happens at the two-week yearly encampment at Bohemian Grove, because I have never been there, but if even one of the rumors about our leader’s endeavors are truth, then folks, we have been terribly misled."

Even if the "cremation of care" is a musical number, the occult aspect of it is quite obvious and for some reason, I am disturbed by the most powerful men in the world burning a mock casket at the foot of a giant owl, I don't like what that implies even if the background music is "Mary Had a Little Lamb". I am also disturbed by a member of the Education Department working with special needs children writing me in defense of such behavior.

The You Tube links I provided are simply photographs from a deceased member's estate(You Tube Photos of Bohemian Grove) and also a ABC news clip from 1981(ABC News 1981), I did not include the Alex Jones video. I am leaving it to the readers to make their own decisions about what occurs there, they say that a photograph speaks a thousand words and the photos are quite clear.

And just because one is not holding office, it doesn't automatically mean they no longer have influence on what occurs in this country and abroad.

Thanks for writing,

Am I the only one that finds it disturbing that this woman works for both the Board of Education and Bohemian Grove? Especially with Foster Youth.